So... I went on a coffee date last night...
Very nice guy, very nice looking, nice time... but definitely no spark. None. Nada. Zip.
I thought I might be my typical crazy, over-analytical, obsessive self, but NO. Not at all. It was a nice date, a good experience to ease me into the dating scene... should I stay IN the dating scene. I am really not sure what would be better for me at this point. My brother (& others) say I need to keep going out on dates, eventually I will be "into" someone, that the only way to move on & feel good is to meet someone else. But the "experts" and other friends say I need to take a lot of time to heal from my last relationship & work on myself before I can truly be ready for dating. I think both sides have valid points!
I must admit, I cried on my way home from my date last night. THIS IS SO NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE IN LIFE! I thought I was moving heaven & earth to be with the love of my life; I gambled everything & lost! I do not want to be "out there" dating... I want to be snuggling on the couch with somebody I love...
F&%* I am depressed...............................
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