For some reason, when I wake up in the morning I have a very hard time with the reality that I am alone, I have moved out of the house I shared with BH, BH is not in the picture, etc.... So I read self-help books or blog & try to do something positive to lead towards healing... but I still can't seem to make it through an entire AM/day without crying at some point....
I am so up & down emotionally & I feel so pathetic when I start crying & carrying on. It is hard when my family & friends, who only want me to heal & be happy, seem to want some switch to flip & me to just be over it! I know they feel like they watched me turn into someone they didn't recognize when I was with BH & they don't understand how I can have feelings for somone who they clearly saw was a total narcissistic, abusive jerk. But if I could explain it, if I could just *POOF* be over it, I WOULD!!!!
*SIGH*
I am trying, I really am.....
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